Portia De Rossi: Hid sexuality at teenage, met with heartbreaking incidents
Wednesday 3, November 2010
Autralian star Portia De Rossi has revealed that she tried to hide her sexuality as a teenager.
The 'Arrested Development' actress, in an interview for the The Oprah Winfrey Show, admitted that she tried to suppress her attraction to other girls when she was younger in order to conform to societal norms.
"Having to hide something like that just ruined me. It really, really killed me," De Rossi said.
"I had always really loved men - and still do - and just kind of assumed that I would be straight. I think everybody assumes that you're gonna be heterosexual. And the thing that made me think that I wasn't, was I developed very strong feelings for my best friends."
Portia further professed that her growing attraction to a female friend led to a series of hurtful incidents during her teen years.
She explained: "I had a series of mini-heartbreaks throughout my teens because my fantasy of what life could be like with my best friend wasn't shared with my best friend. My best friend wanted to get married to a man and have kids and I just wanted to be with them, and that's when I thought something was definitely different about me.
"But really it took me until I was about 18 when I realised I had to date other lesbians if I was ever going to fulfil that fantasy."
The actress, who began dating comedian Ellen DeGeneres in 2004, urged young girls that are facing similar crises to embrace who they are so that they can begin to enjoy life.
"Hiding your sexuality is the most horrible way to live and it really does a huge disservice to society, because if everybody who was gay came out in every profession, teachers, doctors, if everybody came out and said, 'I'm gay. Who cares?' it would make a big impact to what's happening with all this teenage suicide," she concluded.
Portia recently credited DeGeneres with helping her to overcome her battle with anorexia.