Michelle Williams: Talks about life without Heath Ledger

Michelle Williams: Talks about life without Heath Ledger

Michelle Williams has opened up for the first time about her life with daughter Matilda in more than six months after Heath Ledger’s death in 2008.

During an interview for Vogue's October 2009 issue, Michelle revealed that Heath's death in January last year brought a heavier paparazzi presence on their lives.

Michelle said, "Because he died -- it's so hard to say it, now that it's a fact -- it's because of this tragedy that there's more paparazzi. That is hard to be graceful and understanding about,"

Due to the paparazzi, Michelle has had to explain to her toddler things little children don't usually have to try to understand.

"It's because people really loved your daddy that they want to take your picture, to know you're all right," Michelle explained to the mag of what she tells their daughter when the little one asks about being photographed.

The actress said she works hard to be a good role model to her daughter, even during trying times.

"It's an OK model for her to see that her mom has boundaries. It's OK for me to be upset and to raise my voice. But it's an ongoing struggle. It's hard to be the man and the woman in that [paparazzi] situation," Michelle explained. "Heath always used to do that for us."


While she continues to grieve the loss of her ex-boyfriend and the father of her child  Michelle has tried to move on.

She was dating director Spike Jonze earlier this year, a romance that she confirmed has now ended.

Michelle admitted, "The timing was impossible. I thought falling in love again was the only thing that was going to save me from the pain. This [was an] erroneous idea: It just makes things more complicated,"

Twenty nine year old former "Dawson's Creek" star admitted that she did not know how to date with a child. However she has been already with that.

She continued, "I'm falling more and more in love with her," she said of her little girl. "And I think she deserves the bulk of my attention. We're lucky. I can work. She can go to a good school. There's a lot there for her. And she can know her dad in so many ways, and so many of his friends who will be able to tell her so many stories. His friends, his family -- they were a big part of his life, and they will be a big part of her life."